VERY busy bee

chrikeeey its been ages since iv written! since then i started that new job at th 3 horse shoes, hated it, loved it, disliked it & liked it again. so ynaaah, th pays alryt & am gna get about 12hours a week so if i can stick at it forabit al be doin a'ight for money, if i keep up at doppios too. which has also been totally totally shite, & then really good - he/she danny was a rate cunt t me last tuesday, but then on saturday they wer all utter ANGELS t me! i hav no idea wheter im comin or goin wi thm buggers! i also started 6th form last wed, it seems ok at first - th works really hard alredy & i dena how am gna cope - but il try & carry on! wel, i need to if i wna do out decent wi mi life realley! al w do is sit & chat in free periods, go out & tabs & lunches & cups of tea with occasional lessons thrown inta the mix aha! id say i look foreward t tha weekends but at th mo its al work! eg. this week = friday night, three horse shoes. saturday = doppios & sarahs party (which i will tel more about in due course) & sunday = 3 horse shoes & i went fora meal wi mi mammy. anyhoooo - saturday night OMG. i drank 3/4a litre of smirnoff & lotsa stella & smoked about 20tabs & had a really good laugh & met this mint gay lad called micheal & that, theeen all of a sudden i cant rememba out & i was so so ill & i passed out in tha showa & ws sick init & in sarahs sink & my bed & everythin. chrissssst i was so so sosoooo ill on sunday & i ended up workin 6hours & 45mins, befor gan t th toby carvery wi th mother - who suprisingly wasnt half as angry as a thort sh wud b! sarah & emily wenta gig that nyt i refused t go to & ended up in th pub it wa that bad, i hav noo idea how on earth thy managed it! i was fucked! iv also done abit of avon sellin in tha last week, i ws supposed 2 go rund th houses but i cannit be bothered, its too much hassle wi al this school work & other workin lark. today i went bak t se th dietician again, after mam picked is up at 12 & saved is frm psychology, so w went to th keel row fora lovley lunch & we'v just gotten bak. so now am gna log onta ebay & renew mi bid on this gorgeous cream & black dress i NEED & then either get sum work dun or go t sarahs - whicheva appeals at that moment! al try to get bak on here sooner next tym! Xx

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6 days in 6 lines...quick catch up

following up from th last post - did i win the euromillions? did i shite. i was so so annoyed - & 1 bloody number away frm winnin £7500, arrggggh! work gets shitter & shitter, they got on mi nerves all day saturday so i began th great job-hunt again, which picks up this week! anywaaaay, a went bak to the metro centre on sunday with loz & it was a lovley day, all i got was a YSL touche eclat, benefit highligter, a 'pencil case' (aka small black patent H&M clutch) & a top & a necklace, & a pair of skinny jeans. Monday i worked again, where they really pissed me off. they make me feel uncomfortable & to fault for anythin that goes wrong, on tuesday they fuckin rang me to ask wer i put the fuckin mushroom omelette label!! at 5 to 9 in th bloody morning! wel, thats dykes for u! so i went t my interview at the school after that & we go bak on wednesday the 10th, & i found im in 12A, which seems to be full of shitty people tbh, & then me & mother went to the silverlink t get them CGP revision guides cos ima utter nerd. couldnt get english language one, though. then, wen i got home, seriously pissed off with my work situation i began job hunting again, & tried river island & then outfit & it turns out outfit need people! so i made dad tek is bak up after he finished work so i cud hand a CV in, they havent got bak though. that night me & emily & georgia went to sarahs & i did hav utterly sober intentions, but they didnt last long! i had ratha a few glasses of cava & then wen sue & ed got in some vodka oranges & this lovly cheese & ham toastie, so i had a lovley night - just the right amount of drunk. the crack was good, like th old days! havent seen emily & sarah togetha for so long! yesterday emily came down & w took a stroll along th beach & got these lovley new lighters that say 'i love you' on them, & w had some soup & a natter (but sh turned out to be really ill & had to go home) so i went to loz's to watch alfie & hava catch up about her college business! she seems to be enjoyin it. I've found a new passion this week - EBAY. i utterly LOVEIT. iv bought factory girl & alfie dvds which both came on wed & theyr mint! iv lost 2 pairs of shoes & this lush bag i forgot 2 keep checkin on but its so so good! im gettin tons of bargains nd that! & iv put a pair of old black pants on to sell & sum1 bidded on them today! im soo exited, its me new money-making scheme! watch this spaaaace! speakin of money making, the three horse shoes rang is today (i rang them & left details aaaaaaages ago) & it turns out im goin in 4 a trial shift on sunday! today i had to look after joseph til bloody 4 o clock, so i just watched factory girl & iv just gotten bak from th gym & granny normas with dad & sarah. im also hugley injured - joseph needed is to buy sum paint for his bike (u hafta b 16 to buy paint?!?!) & th shop closed at 6 & it was like 10 to, so i said il go on his bike & carl can put him on th bak of his. seein as it was th 1st time iv ridden a bike in about 5years i crashed int a cuvb with peep toe shoes on & it got cut under th nail :( it wouldnt stop bleeding! im so so brave!
so ther it is, the last 6 days in about 6 lines but im in a proper hurry cos i need to go & shower cod TH NEW 8 OUT OF 10 CATS STARTS TONIGHT! in approx. 40mins. getuppp! so am of & wil try not to leave it so bloody long next time! xx

free at last

I STILL havent had a bloody drink & its been 6 days, & fucking counting! im not getting withdrawals or the shakes or anything haha - but its so so odd for me! bein in loooads has helped keep off it, with the 'grounding' that went down. i stayed in al tues, besides work, where i ate 'canna-cookies' the dykes brought back from amsterdam & bought me mother some suck-up flowers (which only slightly worked/helped). i was in al day besides that, & cant really remember wednesday but i think i was in all day, but sarah came across for abit to se is. yesterday (thursday) i went to the hospital (after drinkin 20litres of water) & got weighed & apparently put on a few points of a kilo from last week. 8-| then we went to claires & hada cuppa & chat wi her & seen james the boy genius & olivia, then went to the metro centre to spend some pennies, £40 of which my loving, buying granda gordon give me for doin wel in me exams. i was buzzin, i never see the bloke but he seems to empty his wallet wen im around :) i got about 6 tops, some jeans & the most gorgeous black bag to use for 6th form & some dior show masacara. i still need more stuff for september, so im goin bak on sunday wi loz. i went to hers last night, as mam FINALLY let is out! it wa lyk escapin prison haha! we chatted & drank tea & ate busicuts on her settee while watchin sex & the city film, followed by a brisk walk home, which i strangley enjoyed - i think iv had activity withdrawal. i need to hav a sunbed actually, il have vitamin D withdrawal too! today i met zoe, i seen her (terribly parked) new gold ford ka. its alright, very very teeeeeny inside but whey, its a car. we went ta blyth & i got some bead braclets iv wanted 4 a while, & a pair o earrings, i was in a pearly mood cos the earrings follow suit. we went to baitseys after that which was shit, we watched part of this shitty film about robbin a church, so i came bak & ended up at sarahs fora cuppa. im gna have a shower & sit eagerly watchin bbc 1, i put th euromillions on, as its £70million rollover (Y) th lucky dip numbers SEEM pretty lucky, so hopefully i have a shot. wish me luck! xx

smiles & frowns

bloody hell its been a up-and-down then back-up-then-down sort of few days! thursday was results day & it feels like forever & a day ago. i did well, 2 A's, 4 B's, 3 C's & a distincion in business (which counts as another 2 A's), so to celebrate a few of us went out for an italian & a drink or two in blyth. friday was the down-to-the-up, i cabbaged on the sofa all day. saturday was up again, in a big way! work was good (even thou i did end up doin only 4 hours like) & i met loz like stright after & we went to 21st to get sum wine & we had anotha night at johns gettin pissed, eatin kebab, listenin to music, chattin about every1 nd everythin til yon time - then stumbling home totally out of it. i had a huuuuuge fight with me mother, & the down begins! i cannit really remember it that wel at al, i just kno i bloody hit her :| canit believe it, so i ws totally in th dog house yesterday & i ws stil grounded today, so al iv done is go to the bloody gym & make a fucking cottage pie. im really fucked off - i need to be outtt! iv never been so exited to go to work as i am tomorro, im gna pretennd i hafta work overtime nd stop out cos i WILL die if i have to spend much more time in this bloody house! im guna go & iron mi work top, straighten mi hair & phone loz cos i hav terrible flashbaks of sat, phonin pizza hot & askin wat we cud get for £8 includin delivery, & if it ws ther in less than halfa hour we'd giv the delivery bloke a kiss. christ. im never drinking again. ever. xx

depression lifting?

ever since i've gotten back from turkey i've been really down, im not even sure why, it just feels like i dont want to be doing anything i have been doing & everything seems to get to me. monday was shite, work dragged, shaunnahs was borin & i couldnt be arsed with anyone within a 10meter radius at home. tuesday work dragged just as badly, but when i got in all i wanted to do was collapse & ended up just staying in so i got on my own nerves! work have told me they want to bloody reduce my hours - so wen i go back to school im guna be working fucking FOUR hours, so im guna be proper skint. uurrrghhh. and its fucking results day tomorrow, which isnt really dauntin on is that much but av gota go to hospital first & bob smith does my head in at the best of times, so god knows what its guna be like when il be al skitzy! today cheered me up abit, i seen o'shit for ages. she walked over here & we went to auntie shirleys fora cuppa, then i went to 21st nd got a bottle of wine, some shots in a tube & 10menthols & we had a very entertaining afternoon! we were fuckkkeed by 4 o clock, so walked over to park pizza in the sort-of-rain & ate chips & garlic inside, then we seen baps by wensleydale, then collapsed by this wall for what must have been over an hour, befor emily came & found us! o'shit proper makes is laugh, it was a really good day! first one since friday tbh, maybe saturday? and its wednesday - not like me! heres a little something to remind me if i owned these things, that i'd be VERY cheery xx

happy holideeeeys

back from turkey! & it was a really really good 'un! didnt know what to expect mind, me and th mother, but it was bloody fantastic! wen i got there i discovered bloody volkan was still bloody working ther, so i was furious - but in the end he made my holiday :) we spent the days either by the pool, by the beach & on a boat trip - & i have to say that im a canny colour for 6 days! we seen sam & lorraine, & al of the irish lot a few times, it was lovley to see them all. thers to much & not that much exitement to explain so al do a quick list;
saturday = travellin, meal at gunays
sunday = by pool, met sam & lorraine, meal with those later at gunays
monday = cafe on the rock with S&L, wayside with S&L
tuesday = by pool, birthdaty party at gunays
wednesday = by pool, meal at gunays, richards place
thursday = boat trip, meal at gunays, drinks with irish lot
friday = cafe on the rock, meal & drinks at gunays with th irish
saturday = come home!
so it was very very brief, but very very enjoyable. im in a state of depression at th moment, i really really dont wana be home! i had a shitty & depressed day today, i think av got that SAD disease cos the rain in august is depressin is! i had to wear a cardie today cos its so fucking cold, its august for christs sake!! work again tomorrrow, joy, & av gota still see a few people, al iv seen is emily & shaunnah since i got back.. iv spoken to loz on facebook though & she flies home tomorrow so we'v decided to hav a night in with new-knock-off-nigel-dvds i got & some cheap wine before th end o th week xx

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flamingos, flash-floods & yet more discoveries...

ooooh this work situation only gets worse! well, danny (yes, th boy way) fell down th stairs just before i started on tuesday & she, i mean he, had t go home - so til 1.30 it ws me, sarah & jackie. i love jackie actually - we all sat down & ate quiche & drank coffee cos th shop went dead quiet so we all had a lovley chat :) THENN things turned! the post came - just junk mail addressed to MISS DANIELLE WALKER or wateva her last name is! omggg! so wat is it? maybe its had 'the op' to turn her into a boy, or maybe shes just wanted t b declared as a boy or what?! andddd i also found out at least sarah is into abit of green, i cant say alot cos i was just as bad myself th night before at baitseys (which was a very good night! good fun, chips, tea, smokes & banter) but christ - shes like later 20's! i didnt think anyone, besides phil ryan did that shit over the age of like 19?! so i was working til bloody 4pm cos of bloody he-she, when i was only supposed to work til one. gutted.
last night i seen shaunnah for the first time in ages, she came here for abit & we chatted, then wandred down to ridley park (i know, how sad?!) & met o'shit, steven, russel & his even creepier little sista. it was really shite, but nice to catch up with steven & nicola, even though it was in the middle of a damp park filled with drunken, 10yr old charvers. i was in early like cos i went to flamingo land the day, & i used havin to get up early an excuse. we left here this mornin at like 9.15 & got ther about half 11 & had a realley nice day! we went on the kumali, & some pirate shitty thing & velocity & had lunch & did 'the zoo' & had a pint in the sun & did some more rides, it was laavly actually! th rents werent that bad, & neitha wa joseph, in small doses! me father drove is willlddd as we went thru the 'splash zone' of the log flume, we just strolled thru it with plenty of time before the next ride, then he suddenly picked me up & held is so i couldnt get away & this flume came down the drop & absoloutley SOAKED us through, i was ragingggg. soakin wet, it was startin to get cold & dont even MENTION my hair! never been so pissed off in aaaages. its gettin is all riled just thinkin about it! ruined the rest of the afternoon, but all of a sudden, the heavens opened & the whole of York got a flash-flood! one min it was nice, next the rain was absoloutley hammerin down so hard it hurt! we all got drencheeeed, which made me feel better cos the whole of flamingo land had hair as bad as mine xx

she/he/it?!

ooh much confusion, but on the work front this time - as to the gender of my boss! a thing you'd expect to take for granted, no? but as its me it would be different! anyhooo - i always presumed 'dani' was a lass. she looks like one, talks like one, but in a lesbo, butch-y way. so, today, here i was gettin my pinnie out the boss when mi eyes landed on a certificiate on the wall, for sumat t do wi music on. & it had sarah & jean on, then MR DANNY wateva HIS last name is. i couldnt believeee it! i felt rather sick, & HE was in a strop cos HE thought the machine was broken again (which it wasnt!). i cant get my head round it, maybe it used to be a girl but was changed to be a boy or something? urggggh - i know it shouldnt but the thought of it makes me ill! to think how long i've called HIM a she for...to her, i mean he, i dont know - face! besides this new conundrum its been a pretty marvellous weekend. work was alryt on saturday & on sat night i went t emilys & we drank tea AGAIN but hada nice wander & chat & so on. sunday was fab, i went to the metro centre with me mother & i got lots of nice new things. a YSL foundation compact, a chanel lipgloss, lovley white linen pants, lots of underwear for mi holis & some sexy new shoes. ANDD a new contract phone! we had a rate faff gettin it, but i finally decided on this nice samsung one - its beautiful :) andd i hav unlimited texts onit! unlimited! i'l neva be off the bugger now! i came home & changed alll hundred & thirty sumat numbers over & tried to get the hang ofit, & had a nice early night cos i had t b up for work this mornin. when i discovered...urrr...i dont wana think about it cos i feel terrible! when i think i'v been ratha stupid - it has no chest, wears boxers & right guard for men & that....it looks quite manly & has dark hair....but urggggh! on the plus side its about 4 days to my 'hols! deaaad exited! me, ma, pa & joseph went out for lunch & a pint at the astley arms, which i really didnt want as i'd already had a cheese scone but it ws quite a nice little jaunt :) cant belive its 20 to 5 already, so im off to rustle up some plans for this evenin xx